Monday, March 29, 2010

some favorites.

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[the next three are from my trip to D.C.]

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

list making.

art making.
art critiquing.
skype chatting.
intern running.
laundry folding.
hummus consuming.
GR missing.
LOST watching.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

on my way to DC...

I love Megabus and the fact that I can just get a $20 round trip to Philly or $30 round trip to DC! AND I'm actually on the bus right now, free wifi always a bonus. I'm headed to DC to visit one of my housemates studying there for the semester since it's spring break. It's crazy to think we're all having these different experiences...Katie in DC...Teresa and Jennifer in England...last semester Jill in Hungary...Kristen in Mexico...Grace in Ghana...we are all so blessed to have the opportunity to travel through Calvin!

NYC has been a whirlwind these past couple weeks. I can't believe 2 months from today I'll be in Grand Rapids. I miss it so much. And at the same time, I don't want to waste a minute in New York.

On the other hand, it's getting a little overwhelming and tiring. The mass amounts of people in the city is ridiculous -- 8.3 million is the rough estimate. I've always considered myself a "city girl" with plans to move to the Big Apple at some point in my life and do the whole art thing. Don't get me wrong, I'm not regretting my decision to come here or taking any of these experiences for granted. New York City is the art capitol of the world and if I had it my way, I would just pick up all these artsy-fartsy people and their galleries and put them smack dab in the middle of Grand Rapids. If only it was that easy. I'm loving every minute, aspect, and person in the art world and I'm seeing artwork that I've studied my whole life.

But there are so many people. And nothing is personal. Just mass amounts of people. And it's overwhelming, looking out at the sea of crowds, to wonder if they all know the love of Christ like I do. It's overwhelming, to want to reach out to every person I pass on the street, to give money to every beggar on the train, to love everyone in NYC as much as Christ loves me. I'm just one person. Am I doing my job? To think of all the people out there that might not know or want or have that relationship that I thrive on is too much to dwell on. And the art world? Well it's so much of the time brutally honest and vulgar and biased and judgemental. Where is Christ in all that? Not to lump all artists and artwork into a vulgar category, but it's not easy to see the evidence of God in the mainstream, contemporary art world sometimes.

I'm trying to make art. I'm soaking it all in. I've made amazing friends. I'm appreciative. I love my internship. I do love it here. I just don't think I could live here forever!

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Mostly I eat.

I eat fro yo.
I make art.
I eat pizza.
I walk.
I take the train.
I eat fro yo.
I second-guess my art.
I miss Calvin.
I eat pizza.
I make art.
I talk.
I walk.
I nap.
I eat fro yo.
I watch LOST.
I intern.
I try more art.
I eat.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

where did the time go?

A week and a half until spring break.
A week and a half until a highly anticipated visit. (!!)
A week and a half to get my butt in gear and work harder.

I have no idea how the time is going by so quickly. I feel like I've wasted so many hours...days...I need to soak up NYC for everything that it's worth. I'm excited to see how this second half of the semester will unfold, but at the same time very anxious and nervous. I'm in a sort of limbo period in my art making and don't know where to go from here.

My professor Julie (who, by the way, is great!) mentioned how I am sort of like the Princess and the Pea in my artwork. A little difficult to explain via blog, so I'll just leave it at that for now.

Yesterday I had a chance to talk with 2 of my housemates, one in Grand Rapids and one in England. It was so great to catch up with them -- I miss them so much more than I thought I would! I'm looking forward to spending the summer in GR with my best friends and can't believe in the fall I'll be starting my senior year at Calvin. I'm not ready to grow up yet, I haven't learned enough!

On just another side note, I've absolutely fallen in love with the people in my program. It's too bad that most of them go to Bethel, but I know I will stay friends with at least a few of them for a very long time.